BBT & Triphasic Pattern

H woke me up this morning in a panic. Yesterday her BBT dropped to just at her coverline. I didn't get a chance to ask her what her temp was before work, so I pinged her about 5 minutes before both of us had to run to a meeting. She pinged me back with 97.7...a number that instantly made my heart sink. For the rest of the day, we secretly mourned this cycle in and out of meetings.

This morning, H was sitting on the edge of the bed with her usual "why are you still laying here when there is a crisis happening" look. The first words out of her mouth? "I haven't walked the dogs yet (This is my queue that the morning routine is about to change). My BBT was 98.4." I failed to compute where there was a problem with this. We are at DPO 11, so the higher the BBT the better. H and I were so convinced that with the BBT drop yesterday there was no chance we were pregnant. H wasn't really prepared to think otherwise, so I can understand why it might be more of a shock to the system if this means we are pregnant.

We did take a pregnancy test. It's a little unclear how to "interpret" the results, but we're fairly certain it's negative. So, what does the spike in BBT mean? Could this mean that we are pregnant but the test failed to pick it up? I'm totally lost! Our only explanation is to blame it on the cat.

Tides of Emotion

Yesterday H and I were in the kitchen talking about "things", when I had a sudden realization that we only have four donor vials left. This, however, is not a bad thing...but, for a brief moment it scared the bejeebees out of me. I have moments like this on a regular basis...like clock work. But, during this TWW, I've learned how to acknowledge them and promptly dismiss them. "Yes, we do have four vials left. This is true. One of those vials will be our child's brother or sister. Now, calm the fuck down and relax. We don't need to worry about that right now."

I don't know what is worse...having conversations with your thoughts or admitting it and writing about it. Either way, it seems to be working. So, we're on DPO 6 and I'm feeling relaxed about the whole thing. It's not like we can do anything to change the outcome...we just don't know the outcome. Yet.

To Test or Not to Test?

H and I were in torment over when we should test. I was okay with testing early, as long as the results were positive. I didn't really think about how it would feel it the test results were not positive. We shouldn't have tested. We tested at CD 22 and it didn't make the waiting game any easier. Now we're just waiting for something else...for CD 25, 26, 27 and beyond. We were so excited to take our first pregnancy test, and we were both devastated that the results were 'Not Pregnant'. I didn't think I would be so emotional. Normally, I'm pretty level-headed, down to earth, and positive. Now we're convinced there is still hope. We're convinced that the test is wrong. Today is CD 25 and 12 DPO...still no period.

Posted by "C"