CD 1
Well really today is cycle day 2. It all began yesterday morning. I got up and decided to take a HPT since I was technically 1 day late for my period. The results were negative but we were still hopeful. I insanely convinced myself that the box of HPT that we had gotten at B*rtell's was defective.
After the test we decided to go to the gym. I played around on the elliptical for about 30 minutes barely breaking a sweat. (because lately I think I'm breakable, I normally love a hard workout!) Then I went to the restroom and low and behold....I started my frickin period. I just sat there on the toilet starring at my underwear. When I finally left the restroom 'C' could tell the moment she saw my face. We left the gym and sat in the car and I cried. My emotions were so mixed. I felt such extreme disappointment & relief at the same time. The relief was from fianlly knowing something!
The TWW was killing both of us. I never imagined it would be so hard. Any little twinge or ache in my body I would over analyze and in previous months I would probably ignore. argh!! I have such extreme admiration for couples/women that have been TTC for months and even years.
So, we wait...officially on cycle 2 of the TTC rollercoaster.
After the test we decided to go to the gym. I played around on the elliptical for about 30 minutes barely breaking a sweat. (because lately I think I'm breakable, I normally love a hard workout!) Then I went to the restroom and low and behold....I started my frickin period. I just sat there on the toilet starring at my underwear. When I finally left the restroom 'C' could tell the moment she saw my face. We left the gym and sat in the car and I cried. My emotions were so mixed. I felt such extreme disappointment & relief at the same time. The relief was from fianlly knowing something!
The TWW was killing both of us. I never imagined it would be so hard. Any little twinge or ache in my body I would over analyze and in previous months I would probably ignore. argh!! I have such extreme admiration for couples/women that have been TTC for months and even years.
So, we wait...officially on cycle 2 of the TTC rollercoaster.
posted by C&H at
5:45 PM
2 Comments:
I'm sorry you didn't get a positive on your first try. I know that it's impossible not to get your hopes up and think you will be the lucky ones. It took us 8 cycles to conceive our son and it felt like the longest amount of time in my life. It was so difficult to get through, wondering if it would ever happen. Now we have our lovely 14 month old to show for it who is worth every ounce of pain we went through for him. And, he's the perfect boy, which tries 1-7 may not have been.
Not looking forward to getting back on the ttc bandwagon again. I know when we do it probably won't be any less horrible even though we've been through it again, especially since we'll be trying to get a different mama pg.
Best of luck...hope your wait isn't too long!
Thank you for the kind words and support. This has definetly been eye opening for us and are enjoying the process, as well as building a network with couples/women who have gone before us. :)
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